The Fault in our Stars: Why I hate it?

so while writing this post I'm crying, why I'm crying?
I just finished watching "the Fault in our Stars". And I'm speechless right now, I can't even put my words on this blog, why they do this to us?
THE FAULT IN OUR STARS, the only fiction book which has made me cry, but now the third movie too which has made my eyes shed liters.
Spoilers ahead- read at your own risk
He wasn't supposed to die goddammit! They were supposed to be together' they were supposed to have an infinity. He taught her to live, He taught her how to see this world with a new light' he was supposed to be with her "always". They were star-crossed lovers after all right?
Augustus Waters, not like any other person, he not only lives but LIVES actually. " I'm thankful for little infinity"? ASDFGHJKL
*sobs* they were supposed to be together for heaven's sake!!!!!!!
John Green fuck you!
now just like Hazel, I wanna ask you too. What happens to Hazel after he dies? Does she start a support group like Patrick? gets married to Issac? dies at 25? publishes her novels? or just lives because Gus would've wanted that, because that's what Jack told to Rose.
John Green you owe me some answers! Or else I'll curse you like Peter van Houten.
Sincerly,
A girl whose life got destroyed by stupid book.
and Augustus Waters' other lover.

12 Random Questions

Okay so my friend Ashima came up with this game "My 12 Random Questions" and asked me to post this, well here you gName a dream of yours that you want to be true.
Dream? what dream are we talking about. Alright I wanna become an oncologist and have to most Dramatic love story.

2.which is the best James bond movie ?? ( and why)
-Die Another Day, Peirce Brosnan, need I say more?

3. Describe your lover ? ( physical appearance  and personality both)
-Alright this one is my fave. He should be taller than me, nice hair, prefers harry potter, likes my black t-shirts and could joke with me and at at the same time be all sexy and romantic. Maybe the one who sweep me off my feet in one glance ;)

4. A song that a deep impact on you.
- Stop Crying your heart out by Oasis.

5. A book that you like so much that you force people to read it , and if they don't , you'll become Freddie( nightmare of elm street ) in order to do so.
-Kissing snowflakes by Abby Sher and The fault in our stars by John Green.

6. Name five youtubers that you love
Pewdiepie, Dan, Phil, Joey Graceffa, Marcus Butler

7. Your " heal me I'm love/ study sick" food
- Berry juice and chocolate cornflakes, anytime or rather any Sunday Morning breakfast my Mom makes.

8. Movies that you have seen more than five times.
All Harry Potter movies, Win a date with Tad Hamilton, A cinderella story, 27 Dresses.

9. Compare five Hollywood hottest movie actors ( male and female) and five worst actors.
Same for musicians too
Hot-
Brandon Routh and Christian Bale
Emma Watson
Ian Somerhalder
Leonardo Dicaprio
Emma Stone
Jesse Eisenberg

Not-
Kim Kardarshian( Although I love her game)
Demi Lovato
Miley Cyrus
Nicki Minaj
Iggy Azela

10. Name five things that you hate and love the most in your friend/ homie .... ( it could be anyone...so feel free)
- I love everything about everybody, so I never had to make up any 'hate qualities' list

11. Five ships ( couples) from shows and books that you want should be together in real life
- Draco and Hermione
Sherlock and John
Damon and Elena
Ash and Misty
Augustus and Hazel :'(

12. Love or lust ?Which one is better in your opinion
Love is itself is boring so Love with a tinch of lust.

Happy? Stay there i have my 12 random questions coming up.

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Random post in the mid of exams

Hi amigos! Apologies for not being an active blogger, well I am not Jenna Hamilton you see.
But it's quite ironical that I'm updating my blog right now and I have my Biology midterms tomorrow. Why always leuisure becomes "pleasure" when you have to study? xD
I'm sorry that I cannot reply to all the comments and the nominations which has been going. I will though, after a week or so. I swear on my Divergent books okay?

Till then wish me luck, Tangled people. ;)
And yeah, please please follow me on G+ please! i'll follow you back.

Laters. ;) (I hope you got the refrence, no? alright)

What is Success?

I week ago we had a discussion on success, what does succes means to you? It seemed quite vague and I got some pretty weird answers. Someone said "Money", "Becoming a doctor", "Satisfaction", "Proving someone wrong". However when it came to me I was blank, I didn't know the meaning of success.
Hence, I did some research on success and this what I can across. Literally, success is defined as-
"noun"E
  * 1.the accomplishment of an aim or purpose.
2)the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors; the accomplishment of one's goals.

Yet I still wasn't sure of the meaning.
I did some more research and eventually found that, the answer was in front of me.
A smile. A smile because of me.
Making people smile, thats what I want to do in my life.Becoming the reason behind that smile. Hearing a genuine "thank you", knowing that I left some impression in someone's life. This all might seem cliche to you, but trust me it's not.
Yesterday I was talking to my friend from old school. She said she missed, however I replied its stupid to miss people now, its done, gone, memories needs to be cherished and all that crap.( She copied my words as her status, woah!). But to my surprise she told me this, "Sammy just because you're gone doesn't mean that I can't miss you, you said never to be bothered by anyone and believe in myself, well I do now! Thank you because of you I can finally think myself as "something"."
But in the end it was me who was smiling. I was glad I did something for which someone "remembers me".
This is what I want to do now. I dont have any proffessional goals yet but  I want to get into med school, because that will make my parents smile. I want to do something for them.
I want to do something and in return people's smiles will be my token of content.
Thats success for me.

My worst fear.

Often I question myself, am I doing this right? I am good enough or not? You know my worst fear...Not living up to the expectations. Being a disssapointment.
We don't know what is there in our cards only thing we can do is trust the instinct and move one. But I wonder, what will happen when you turn out to be "not good enough for this world". Will your people still accept you?
The thing is I'm scared. I'm scared of being the next the dissapointment.
I regret some decisions in my life, and regret is not something  to live by. I wish I could be more expressive. To tell someone 'I love you', 'I miss you', 'I'm here for you,always'. Yet I never told them to anyone. And thats the thing I regret. These unspoken words, untouched feelings  burried deep down with regret. I want say so much to everybody yet I cant, because i'm a walking peice of irony.
I'm like that girl who can never console you during an ugly time but can always give you a shoulder to cry on. I'm here for you, ALWAYS even if you don't care..I want people to understand me, because I can talk 24 hours about random stuff but I can never tell you a bit my emotions.  I can never  work with my emotions, neither I can express them.

I want to be good enough for everybody, do something that'll make my parents proud, my friends smile and make myself content.

I wonder what I'm doing is right, is this enough.
So many unawnsered questions.

I'm not like Her

Well I should be in bed right now because I'm damn tired but since I have'nt updated my blog in a while,  so thought I'll update this peice of shit.
Okay for past few day something's been going in my mind and I'd like to write about it.

A few days ago I was stalking my crush's ex- girlfriend's profile, accept it everybody does that. And I  thought to myself , why I'm not like her? I mean at some point you do realize what you can be and what can't be.

She is like the opposite pole of myself. She's got great legs, sexy pout and definatly way cooler dresses than me. I on the other hand, don't really own any dresses!  I don't own  a single pair of heels ( and my mom is threatning me to throw my red sneaks.)

Indeed, that moment you realize you cannot carry the same dress because your waist is definatly not 24. Maybe thats why guys don't make a move at me, because they know I'm not like her. I like to read rather than gossip, wear black tees over floral tops, chatter loudly instead of doing  a sexy pout and being obssesed with Black Veil Brides and Avenged Sevenfold rather than Justin Beiber and One Direction (oh by the way, I hate 1D, there I said it!)
Guys, don't like girls like me because they know "I'm not like her". I can never be like her.

News flash: Guys like dumb shallow girls, they prefer plastic over epithelial cells.

In the meantime I'm okay with being a Tangled Girl.

Emma Watson: The Epitome of Perfection

You must be aware about my unhealthy obsesssion with Harry Potter. But Harry Potter is more than that. Iam not only crazy about Hermione Granger but I am also nuts over the girl who plays her.
Emma Watson epitomize perfection. And these quotes justifies it. She is indeed my #1 girl crush. I mean c'mon look at her, she is hot and she can act. If these quotes are true then she should be every young girl's role model.
You go Emma Watson!

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